I want to be...

 Psalms 1

¹ Blessed is the man 
       who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked 
       or stand in the way of sinners 
       or sit in the seat of mockers.

 ² But his delight is in the law of the LORD, 
       and on his law he meditates day and night.

 ³ He is like a tree planted by streams of water, 
       which yields its fruit in season 
       and whose leaf does not wither. 
       Whatever he does prospers.

 ⁴ Not so the wicked! 
       They are like chaff 
       that the wind blows away.

 ⁵ Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, 
       nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.

 ⁶ For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous, 
       but the way of the wicked will perish.

I was reading this chapter in my bible today listening to He Loves me by John McMillan, and wow did it ever hit me how much God really loves me, and how He wants so much more for my life then what I have going right now. There is so much in this world today, and the world does have a lot to offer, but I have come to realize what God has to offer is much more then what this world will ever give me, other then heart ache and miss understandings. 

I really don't know at this point where I stand but, I know where I want to be standing. I really want all of Gods gifts He has for me, I want every blessing that he pours on me, I want everything that He has to offer. Am I too selfish to ask for it all? 

I want to be that person at my workplace that everyone comes to for advice, and I want to be able to share the Gospel with all these people and tell them of everything God has done for me in my life. I am so blessed right now to know God, I want to be able to bless people as well. Even if I am rejected God is more important too me then someone who doesn't want anything to do with me  because of what I believe in. He is the one I can just tell him everything and release all my sorrows and pain onto him and feeling his presence just surround me just like the sun does in the middle of the afternoon. 

I'm going to keep trusting and believing in God and not be that judging person who I use to be and still am time to time, I want to be better then that, I want to be the person who sees the beauty in everything and everyone.

I'm just trusting in God and believing I'm going in the right direction in my life. Not worrying about what people think, just worrying about what God thinks.